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Monday, July 31, 2006

Emotional crap

Whee. Went around today telling people penis jokes. I don't know why either, it just was fun is all. Kudos to Dad for telling me that joke in the first place.

Now I'm about to go totally emo. Not that that's a first. Anyway, my mom reprimanded me today for being rude. Now, she's entitled to that, I know. But, when a guy has, all during dinner, been trying to get a word in and has been ignored and then, when he has eaten his damn vegetables facing his mom, he half expects her to realize that yes, I have eaten the green. She didn't, proving to me that neither of them notice me. This, coupled with all the shit I get in school, has made me irritated and jumpy. In school, whenever I try and be alone, assholes, and no, I do have friends there but its always the assholes who come up to me to say hi. Isn't that just messed up? The people I don't give two shits about and who I don't want to give two shits about me always notice me, but the people I love don't. Meh.

Story of my life, come to think of it. Especially my love life. No one ever notices me when I like them, but hell everyone else does. Then again, I never did tell them, but that was because I knew I'd need a job to pay off the dates. Still, not even a notice. Its either I'm a good actor or I'm just marked.

Giving bizarre thought to getting a tattoo. Something gothic, blady, maybe multicoloured. No idea why.

This is also why I hated to come here in the first place. I had finally found a group of friends who notice shit about me, who can tell when I'm pissed, who can bloody tell me what I had for lunch even though I was in a daze staring at that girl out of the corner of my eye making sure no shit is happening to her. Yeah, maybe a bit perverted, but hell, I'm a guy, it could have been worse. Anyway, I had a group who noticed me, and who I knew shit about, and dammit, there it goes. Straight across the damn Indian Ocean.

And oh, honey? I am trying my hardest not to go into Emo Mode here. All for you.

On another downside, KH2 is giving me strange ideas. Seriously, Final Form? Ninja wish they were that cool. Samurai too. Ninjasamurai. Frankly, I feel inadequate. Its stupid, seeing as I've been watching anime for several years now, but I guess its the freaky hormone attack I've had, what with the sudden crush and shit.

Meh, I can't bloody be bothered to write anymore.

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Thursday, July 27, 2006

whee

Had two more tests today. Math and Chem. Math was total bullshit, and no, don't give me that sigh I know you're doing. This was really shit. I finish the paper and THEN all the answers come to me. Bloody hell.

Chem was alright though. I think I did passably.

Lately, I've been feeling the need for hugs. I have no idea why though. It might have something to do with the resurgence of a long repressed crush. Still, there's nothign I can do, not when the one in question is across the Indian Ocean. There, I've given you a hint, now shut up. xD

Finally, you all know this, but I'm going to say it anyway. KH2 PWNZ TEH AZZ!!

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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Just plain NUTS

Went for UMAT. The Undergraduate Medicine and someotherthingIforgot Admission Test. As the name implies, its a test that lets me get into either doctoring or dentistry. Totally optional, I signed up because I wanted to. Here's where it starts getting different from everyone else who did it though.

I didn't do it because I want a career in that field, or because my parents forced me to. No, ladies and gentlemen, I did it entirely for kicks. In other words, for the hell of it. Yeah. I figure I'm the only one in that entire damn hall of 500 kids who was doing it for the hell of it. Still, I got to miss more than half of school. Catching up will suck though.

People think I'm absolutely blinkin' nuts for taking this shit just because I can. I think they're right.

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Whee?

First day back at school today. Big whoop. For the first day back, there was decidedly less helloing and howwasyourholidaying than I anticipated. The general air was more along the lines of meh. Maybe I'm just hanging out with the wrong crowd.

I have a twisted mind and I'm going to hell. Yes, I know, nothing new, but I'll just jot this down so I can laugh later on.

Girl walks up and says hi. I do the polite thing and return the greeting and ask how was the hols. She then says that she went on camp and had the greatest experience of her life and the very first thing that popped into my mind was "You lost your virginity?" I didn't say it out loud though, but I did ask her to stop talking, saying I was repressing the irresistable urge to say something lewd.

Hey, guess some things never change.

Got our leaver's jackets. After what, more than a month of delays? Then again, made in Indonesia. Between two earthquakes and a tsunami, I'd say they did well to turn it up at all. My thanks to all those guys who slaved over this piece of thing I wear on my back which I've already managed to dirty.

Whee? Maybe. I've still got some English shit to do. Then again, the only shit I ever have to do here is English, so meh.

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Sunday, July 23, 2006

Karma you bitch

Today's the day, ladies and gents. Today's the day when, after OH so long, I finally got KH2. Now, I could go off into a totally fanboyish rant but I'm pressed for time right now, so let me just paraphrase Ansem Retort here to describe how I feel.

I am going insane from pure kick ass. IT IS GLORIOUS.

Incidentally, here's the link for Ansem Retort. http://www.analogpaladins.com/Images/Comics/AR/index.html If you don't know of KH, and shame on you if you don't, it'll probably only be half as funny. Still, it's nice random bullshit sure to illicit a laugh unless you're gay, have kids with ADD or drug problems or a Jehovah's witness. And if it's the last one, watch out because I am so declaring a jihad on your collective asses.

Sorry. In-house joke. Read Ansem Retort and you'll get it.

Anyway, as karma would have it, damn you buddha, there was an up and a down. You know the upside already. It's frickkin' KH2, what could be better? Fine, FFXIII. Anyway, I digress. The downside was that my teacher responded to the email I sent her asking for help on my assignment. I must have been drunk when I did that. Or maybe sober. I'm not sure which. Either way, I now have suggestions for improvement on my shitty assignment, which roughly translates to more damned work. Hence the pressed for time bit.

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Thursday, July 20, 2006

18?

Today a woman came up to me and asked if I smoked. Don't look at me, that must have been the punchline.

Damn I should shave.

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Whee

Finally got the song "More than words" by Extreme. I so love it. Its like some kind of second Bible to me now. Hope I could be like that, not just saying but acting as well. That would be fun.

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

KILL!

Radio in this country is freaky. Today alone I heard no less than two ads about, I shit you not, premature ejaculation. Point of fact, they used that exact phrase. Seriously, this is radio. Kids could hear this. Yes, I know we can count on the internet and late night TV to take away their innocence, but this is really something. Specifically, something bad. I'd love to be a fly on the (interior) wall of the car with a kid asking his parents what premature ejaculation is though. That would be something to see.

Moving offshore, gossip about Paris Hilton, who has gone and compared herself to Marilyn Monroe and Princess Diana. Now, before I even begin to say with what criteria, first look at the two women in question. On one end, we have Marilyn Monroe, the woman who sang that diamonds are a girl's best friend and the star of the first ever Playboy magazine, among other things. Then we have Princess Diana, God bless her soul. Wow, that's really a match made in heaven isn't it? What in the NINE UNDERLEVELS OF HELL do the two have in common?

Well, hats off to the Hilton girl (that whore), she managed to find what they had in common. Both were blonde and both were icons of the times. True. Here's where it gets freaky. She has compared HERSELF to THEM based on THAT criterion. Basically she's saying that, like them, SHE is the blonde icon of the times. Now, pitchforks at the ready, don't light the torches till we're there. Icon of our times. Young upstart slut. Well, we know we can leave her rotting in a jail cell without food for a couple of years now. She'll just live off her ego.

She also takes offence at being called a dumb blonde. Yes the girl has issues with it. Well, that just makes the list one point longer, nothing lost. And hey, now it's long enough to ~comfortably~ reach the other end of the universe, not just ever so barely. Anyway, she says she's smart and a businesswoman, just like, and I swear to God this is a quote from her, "Jessica Simpson".

Seriously, I don't even have to make up a punchline. It speaks for itself.

Although, now that I think about it, she's a young, blonde, anorexic whorebitchslut who parties all week and lives off her parents money. Hey, she ~IS~ an icon of our times.

I still want to kill her though.

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Friday, July 14, 2006

Yay

Went to mom's friend's house. Watched "I not stupid too".

That was, hands down, one of the best things I've ever seen. None of that Hollyweed bullshit that I've been seeing so much nowadays, with cars exploding, same cliched characters (nerd, womanizer, woman, etc.) and stuff that has been done a million times. This film just had one kind of person, and that was people. Ordinary people. Just guys making a living, having a family, doing normal shit. That was good. Bunch of kids with teachers who piss them off and parents who won't listen. Kids who steal because of circumstance, then get hit by conscience. Who hasn't felt that way before? Those who answered yes, let the rest of us kill you. This was life itself, not the cushioned crap that we get fed everyday by those politically correct morons. This. Was. Good.

I do particularly love the fact that a father can love but not know how and that no child can't learn. It's just assholes put in authority who can't teach. Nearly made me cry, and hell, that's an achievement. In fact, maybe I did and I just can't remember. For the love of God, please make more like this. We don't need a some gay richass hotshot getting laid and then getting laid by that woman's sister, we just need some emotion. We need something human.

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Sunday, July 02, 2006

Freaky shit

Had friend's family over for dinner. Had a 6 year old girl sit in my lap. Well, she's 6, I suppose that's innocent enough. Then her hand innocently strayed to my crotch. Yeah, when I woke up today, I -really- though chances were low that I'd be molested by someone half my age. It's just not the kind of thing you really prepare for. Of course, this is only the latest in a long list of freaky things that little girls have done to me, so I decide to ignore it and focus on the computer screen instead. I'm glad I did.

It's a sad sad world that makes you indifferent to molestation by kid's half your age. Then again, if this was Japan, I probably would be born not giving a damn. It's nice to know that for at least a few years I would have complained.

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